I was amazed when I saw you at the first time. You looked so special in the people. Your attractive eyes and charming smile made me feel very nervous. When you walked close, I was speachless. You looked so lovely. You shone bright like a diamond, even more than the sparkling stars in the sky. You are a little out of reach for me. Thank you for giving me a chance to make friend with you. I would like to find someone to talk.
I don't know why I fall into the depth? After I met you, and we talked a few times. It changed my life. Everything became so untruthful. I tried to come back to the reality, but I can't. The daily life are mirage.I don't know why I couldn't focus on my job. I became absentminded. I forgot the things I needed to do. I lost the things I needed to bring home.
I know that we are just friend. I still want to do the efforts for you. My spirits were followed your emotion. When you were unhappy, I trird to make you laugh. When you were sad, I didn't like to see you cry, I tried to cheer you up. I try to be a nice friend to you. I know you are more independent than you said. I know others think I am crazy, and stupid. They think you have so many good friends around you, you don't need me to do anything for you.
You ever asked me what makes me memorable of you. I said maybe you had enchanted on me. When you heard that, you just laughed and said no. I had also thought about this feeling indescribable. It let me want to do the effort for you. Even I want to be a running man for you. You ever said that you like the sunset, but I didn't have any chance to bring you to see the sunset.
I never want to get anything from you. I just want to be your friend. I never ask you to do anything. When I know ..... I felt so sad, I respected you, and what you wanted to do.
I know maybe I become a joke for your friends. I didn't mind. You ever comforted me that we didn't do anything wrong, we just talked as friends. You told me don't need to care about what the others said. I said I will praise you like before.
Sometimes I would wake up in the mid night. In the dreams I want to talk to you, but you just turn your back on me. I feel so sad. I had no chance to tell you my feeling. In the rain, I can't make out it's tears or just the rain on my face.If I did anything wrong, if I said anything with bad-manner, please forgive me. If I had brought ant trouble to you, or I had brought any pressure to you. I want to apologize to you. I never try to change you, please be yourself, just the way you are.
Please hang on your charming smile all the time. When you are happy. All your friends will feel happy for you.Please do your best on your job. Find the things you are interested. Do the things that can make you feel happy.
That day when you were drunk, you vomited many times. When you want to go back to your room. I follow beside you to take the elevator. Because you stood unstable, I was worry you'll fall again. I tried to gently hold you, but you didn't feel anything. Until you arrived your room safely, I went back to my office.
I know I am not a nice guy. I am not a good friend, too. But I had try my best to do the efforts for you. Maybe you didn't care what I had done. It's ok. I hope you know I try to treat you like a princess all the time.
I ever think, when I feel sad. You will encourage me. When I need someone to talk, you will just be right there. Now I know that why you told me that I need to be stronger by myself.
These days when I heared people talk about you, I still feel very sad. I know you try to keep a very far distance with me.I miss your smile. I miss your voice. I know we are just friend. Don't worry about that. There are always a special place for you in my heart. I just want to find someone to talk. Whatever you are happy, or you are sad. When you need someone to talk, I am just here. Please take care all the time. God bless.
I just want to be your friend. I never want to compair with anyone of your friends. But there are some terrible things in these days. I feel so helpless. I don't know the jealousy will make all things out of control.
Today is the Moon Festival. When I see the beautiful full moon here, is it the same one you see there? Some people said: If you miss someone in your heart, when you see the full moon, the image will show up in the full moon. I am not sure, will you show up in the full moon or just in my dreams.
Thank you for you wanted to talk to me before. You ever told me that I should enjoy those things I
really like. I keep on snorkling, riding the bike and taking pictures. I try to treat myself well these days. I always want to treat people well, but I don't know wether they like or not. Even I made trouble to them sometimes.
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